Lost in space
Black hole eyes
On this desolate land
Waiting with hope in hand
Years have passed by
Covered by a solid sky
Lonely nights and days,
In this elliptical shape,
Planets spreading so wide,
Still, … I stand by your side
Black hole eyes, searching the night
For a sign, for a glimpse, for a reason why
Silence fills the air
Yet your voice,
it isn’t there
Radio silently still
No answers, just the chill
I’m keeping our base in check
Dreaming of the day you’ll come back
Tending to the garden’s needs
Nurturing the lonely seeds
Looking up to the darkened dome
Wondering if you’ll ever come home
Black hole eyes, searching the night
For a sign, for a glimpse, for a reason why
Silence fills the air
Yet your voice,
it isn’t there
Black hole eyes, searching the night
For a sign, for a glimpse, for a reason why
Silence fills the air
Yet your voice,
it isn’t there
Back home
Stars were distant warm and cold
Weightless in the dark I floated
Missed the ground beneath my feet
Earth’s pull calls me back deep
Empty rains where silence spoke
Memories of you kept me hopeful
Everything stretched endless out there
Heart is anchored to the blue
Falling through the night
Falling through the night
Falling through the night
Coming back to you
Darkness whispered secrets old
Fingers reaching for the sky
Family waiting hearts below
Gravity binds yet sets me free
Falling through the night
Falling through the night
Falling through the night
Coming back to you
Falling through the night
Falling through the night
Falling through the night
Coming back to you
In the folds
I slip inside
Dark thoughts twist
Seeking warmth
In the folds
I am small
King in shadows
Murmur softly
Guide your steps
Veiled embrace
Relentless bond
In the folds
I find you
In the folds
I bind you
In the folds
I weave my web
In the folds
You are mine to keep
Dreams unasked
My desire
Love I give
Twisted, true
Veiled embrace
Relentless bond
In the folds
I find you
In the folds
I bind you
In the folds
I weave my web
In the folds
You are mine to keep
In the folds
I find you
In the folds
I bind you
In the folds
I weave my web
In the folds
You are mine to keep
Ecdysis
Skin peeling away slowly.
Breath unsteady, eyes dim.
Light carving images in silence.
Something shifting inside me.
Hands are losing their grip.
Walls thinning like paper.
Shadows curling at edges.
Nothing feeling the same.
Ecdysis.
Any weight slipping, any touch fading.
Flesh dissolving
in bare air.
Dust clinging to old scars.
Notes pulsing against cold.
Ash lingering on lips.
Names dissolving in smoke.
Fingers are tracing lost lines.
Nothing holding me in this life.
Soft winding pulling closer.
I am becoming something else.
Ecdysis.
Any weight slipping, any touch fading.
Flesh dissolving
in bare air.
Soft winding pulling closer.
I have become something else.
Sonder
Twilight faces fade
Ghostly whispers glide
Eyes in endless maze
Life’s pulse cast aside
Unseen echoes chase
Dreams that swiftly fade
Hidden tales, lost space
Night’s parade displayed
Souls, hidden tomes
Worlds within, confined
Glimmers lost, far home
Whispers left behind
Threads of miles entwine
Apart, not alone
Silence hums, a sign
Heart fragments unknown
Souls, hidden tomes
Worlds within, confined
Glimmers lost, far home
Whispers left behind
Souls, shadows roam
Secrets left behind
Dreams in twilight, sown
Whispers, undefined
Paper moon
You handed me a stolen sun,
A lantern cut from magazine gold.
I held it up against the dark,
It flickered once, then tore in two.
Paper moon, thin hands
Falling from a borrowed sky,
Slipping through my palms.
I traced your name in steam and dust,
A map I thought could lead me home.
The wind just laughed, erased the path,
Left only footprints made of salt.
Paper moon, thin hands
Falling from a borrowed sky,
Slipping through my palms.
The radio hums an empty tune,
A song that once had blood and bone.
Now just a thread without a knot,
Unraveling in quiet air.
Paper moon, thin hands
Falling from a borrowed sky,
Slipping through my palms.
So here I stand with silver scraps,
A tattered glow, a paper crown.
The night is full, the night is whole
And I don’t need a hollow light.
So here I stand with silver scraps,
A tattered glow, a paper crown.
The night is full, the night is whole
And I don’t need a hollow light.
Fortnight
Your shoes still by the door,
my hoodie folded wrong on your chair.
Half a season left unwatched,
and chocolate you never finished.
You said it tasted like Tuesdays.
I still don’t know what that means.
You laughed with your eyes closed
on the second night,
called me “captain” when I spilled the tea,
ate toast in bed on the fifth,
stopped talking during the ninth
right after the lightbulb buzzed twice.
Fourteen nights
and somehow I still taste them.
Your hand on my neck,
your silence in the morning.
It was never nothing
but it never became something.
We slept with windows open,
the air smelled like rain and dust.
You traced constellations on my back
and named one after your old dog.
You never told me why you cried
when I said “lemon tree.”
I keep your first breath in the morning,
the way your voice cracked saying “sure.”
The sound of your thumb on the window
when you watched the rain
and thought I wasn’t looking…
…but I was.
Fourteen nights
and I still hear the key turn.
Your shadow in the hallway,
your laugh behind the door.
It was never nothing
but it never became something.
I keep counting
like it’ll bring you back.
Fourteen nights.
And then
then there’s just me.
Halo
Your touch like a halo
Choking me so slow
Breathless in the throes
In the distant glow
Under moonlight glow
Breath escapes my soul
Miss you so much more
now that you are gone
Whispers in the leaves
Memories in freeze
Can’t find inner peace
Ache in every breeze
Your touch like a halo
Choking me so slow
Breathless in the throes
In the distant glow
Time just wanders by
Tears refuse to dry
Underneath this sky
Thoughts of you imply
Your touch like a halo
Choking me so slow
Breathless in the throes
In the distant glow
Your touch like a halo
Choking me so slow
Breathless in the throes
Of this endless woe
How it started
“Do you always sit alone?"
"You never laugh enough."
"I don’t drink coffee, but I like the smell."
"I’d follow you anywhere.”
“You talk in circles."
"You listen like you already know the ending."
"Close your eyes, just trust me."
"I had a dream about this place.”
“Tell me again how it started."
"Tell me again how everything started between us"
"Tell me again how it started."
"Tell me again how everything started between you and me”
“I always knew it would be you."
"We should take a dog."
"What if we just never stopped driving?"
"Your hands are colder than mine today.”
“You look tired."
"Don’t turn the light off yet."
"You’re not listening."
"I didn’t mean to say that.”
“It’s just a headache."
"You’re overthinking again."
"Let’s talk about something else."
"I love you”
“Tell me again how it started."
"Tell me again how everything started between us"
"Tell me again how it started."
"Tell me again how everything started between you and me”
“Your jacket still on the chair."
"The tea went cold."
"They said it happened fast."
"I’d follow you anywhere.”
Sertoli
In the shadows,
You remain.
Silent guardian,
Feeling your unseen pain.
They grow and thrive,
And you do not.
Bound to nurture,
That’s your role.
Inside, you dream,
Of a different soul.
They grow and thrive,
And you do not.
In the realm of tight junctions,
You weave connections unseen.
Holding close what cannot defy,
A quiet yearning in the serene.
They grow and thrive,
And you do not.
Frozen in this life,
Dreams just out of your sight.
A silent, aching soul,
Longing for a whole.
They grow and thrive,
And you do not.
Silent, still you stand,
Dreaming quietly.
Fragile skin
Ebbing tides,
Electric eyes,
Flicker light,
Night slides.
Shadow dreams,
Wax rivers rise,
Breeze whispers,
Leaves tangled in trees.
Time spins like wild winds,
Patterns etched on fragile skin,
Faces blend, then end.
Slow mirrors,
Petals in snow,
Silver waves,
News on the radio.
Smoke shapes,
Truth in disguise,
Crystals form, shatter twice,
Ripples in the dark lake.
It draws us closer in,
It draws us closer in,